Thank you to everyone who took the time to read my last blog and another thank you to everyone who left a comment.
I wish I could say my feelings have changed. Most of the time when I go off on one like that the next day I’m fine again and back to daily life. This time though my feelings haven’t changed. I’m trying to fight through for the sake of my family…I don’t want my mood to effect them. Which I know it does. Feels like I’m forever snapping and shouting for no reason at all. It’s killing me so much yeah I can’t seem to stop.
I have nothing to contribute to the world. I have no great talents, I don’t work, I feel like the biggest hindrance 24/7. Is their anyway to get these thoughts to stop? Maybe I don’t deserve for them to stop, that’s why they’re always here.
Fed up, pissed off, trapped and don’t see anyway out….
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Don’t ever let yourself (or anyone) tell you that you deserve to feel that way, it’s simply not true. No one deserves to be hounded by constant thoughts of inadequacy. I hate that you are feeling this way and I wish you could see what others see in you! I’m not trying to be nosey or overstep my bounds, but have you ever considered talking to a psychologist? I know it’s not for everyone, but in my honest opinion as someone who has participated in therapy as well as worked in the mental health field, I think it’s one of the best things we can do for ourselves and our mental health! Yes, it can make things harder and more uncomfortable, especially in the beginning, but over time it can equip you with the tools that will ultimately help you be the best version of yourself that you can be! You deserve happiness, despite what you may think and I hope and pray that you are able to find it! ❤ ❤
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Sorry to hear you’re still feeling like this- hang on in there!
I agree with Brittney that maybe professional help could be useful? They even have online therapists now in case you can’t make it into a physically therapists office? It sounds like such a difficult thing to deal with in your own, so I hope you find some sort of help that’s useful for you
Obviously, everybody’s experience is different, but I’ve been in therapy for over 3 years now and it’s been so useful. it xx
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Hard to read that you are feeling so down. I identified with a lot of what you said in your previous post. I wish you didn’t see yourself in such a poor light and that you could see what an interesting and articulate person you are.
Being a wife and mum should not define you – but it does mean that you are absolutely NOT useless.
I agree with Brittney as well. I think you need some guidance to find yourself and to realise how great you really are.
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